Hi, gosh I really hope you don't mind but I thought I would post this as a first time ever to post anything for the public to see kind'a thing. I'm curious how the masses read my words and would love to know if I'm communicating as well as I'd like. 
I hold strong in my heart that I will thrive. That when my children have grown they will remember me not as the puny woman I was, nor the struggling woman I am now, but as the strong and light hearted woman I strive to become. Let me not forget how to laugh. Let me savor the texture of my dreams, smile at my every victory so that I do not lose sight of my goals in face of disparity.
My future is mine to determine. I have awoken from the narcosis of depression and self-doubt and rub periodically the residual sleep from my eyes. With such trials that have been my past, I have learned that in life as well as in nature, the rain must fall and the sun must shine. It is my heart that will find the sun on those rainy days, with solid resolution I will break the clouds and I will find it.
The sheer power of my thoughts will forge my path. I have lived and seen much ugliness and I refuse to walk in that mire another minute of my time. I will be more cautious of the company I keep for I have learned that we live the very lives of those close to us. For this reason I will happily emulate my friends for all of those qualities they possess and I desire, and because of my sincerity, they will teach me.
I will remember that to try something new, no matter its importance to the world, is to experience a quickening of the senses. In essence, it is a form of re-birth, a moment when the mind is imprinted with raw and vivid impression. It matters not if the outcome is not as expected, because for a time I will have been completely alive, and that in itself is my ultimate goal.
I hold strong in my heart that I will thrive. That when my children have grown they will remember me not as the puny woman I was, nor the struggling woman I am now, but as the strong and light hearted woman I strive to become. Let me not forget how to laugh. Let me savor the texture of my dreams, smile at my every victory so that I do not lose sight of my goals in face of disparity.
My future is mine to determine. I have awoken from the narcosis of depression and self-doubt and rub periodically the residual sleep from my eyes. With such trials that have been my past, I have learned that in life as well as in nature, the rain must fall and the sun must shine. It is my heart that will find the sun on those rainy days, with solid resolution I will break the clouds and I will find it.
The sheer power of my thoughts will forge my path. I have lived and seen much ugliness and I refuse to walk in that mire another minute of my time. I will be more cautious of the company I keep for I have learned that we live the very lives of those close to us. For this reason I will happily emulate my friends for all of those qualities they possess and I desire, and because of my sincerity, they will teach me.
I will remember that to try something new, no matter its importance to the world, is to experience a quickening of the senses. In essence, it is a form of re-birth, a moment when the mind is imprinted with raw and vivid impression. It matters not if the outcome is not as expected, because for a time I will have been completely alive, and that in itself is my ultimate goal.
