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Ours

sjose888

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Ours is inspired by the different faces of love and life's complexities. Two different lives sharing the same world.The story was folded into eight parts. The eight folds shows different sides of love, its characteristics and its uniqueness in every given situation. Love outshines everything, it conquers all things and knows no death. Love might be temporary, but it carves every heart who tried it.


First fold: Music of Fools


I laid my plans in this summer like a blueprint of some architects. A to-do-list for two months of liberty. Ha. My number one list would be watching the concert of Poison and Thorns, and it would be great. Two weeks from now, my number one list would be crashed out. The number two would be a date with my friends; we’ll have some shopping or window shopping. Ew. It won’t be nice if we just walk and talk and went home with nothing, just a leg cramp or swollen soles from walking a mile with a three-inch-high-heel just like Lady Gaga’s. Number three will be, of course, dating with guys and breaking up with them without any reasons. Let’s be practical. No women are a saint

I looked at our old TV, perceiving weather forecast. Rain in summer? Dear Allentown, why I live in this city? We’ll ask my stupid dad who knew nothing but bringing whores in our house. I wish he’ll get STD. Uhm, nah never mind. (God forbid.) A rain in summer is cool, I admit. A hot morning and cold nights for lovers.

Where were we? Oh one, two, three, four, eight… yes probably I got eight hot lovers in my senior years. Guess what? I busted them after taking what I wanted: money, fame, and lust. (Hmm, criss-cross lust.)

The other lists will just come into place, for now I’ll just prepare to answer my best friend’s call. Her name is Annie; she’s hot, rich, and rich. Never mind about her, if I’ll narrate her life you’ll get jealous and envied like what I experienced, even now.

The telephone rings.

“Jennifer,” dad shouted. I rolled my eyes.

“I know, I know. You don’t need to shout.”

I answered the phone.

“Hello, this is Jen---“

“Hi Jen, guess what?”

I smiled, “shopping?”

“Precisely. Outside the Subway, three sharp. Wear your best dress, and I’ll wear mine too. By the way, Christine and Samantha will join us. I invited them. The more the merrier.”



The more the scarier. Best dress? I got only one best dress. Do I need to buy one? Ugh. One of the reasons why I hate my friends: wasting money just to buy dress from Chanel, or Fendi.

“Okay, copied. Three sharp, Subway. Not inside just outside.”



Dad gave me a look. I know he’s happy. He can bring another whore. Ugh. I hate you. I raised my eyebrow.



“I know dad, you don’t need to give me a look and smile. Just don’t mess up with my room or I’ll kill your whore, slowly. Use your room, not mine. You can use that couch, if your room smelled prehistoric. Ugh! I hate talking to you like this; I’m like gran-gran.”

“Thanks,” he replied.

“You can go home late, it doesn’t matter,” he added.



I hurriedly went upstairs, seeking my only best dress. I’ve got two hours to prepare myself. I turned on the CD player and here comes Dion’s song: If you ask me to. Noticing the paper made me smile. Thank God I’m smart! I passed De Sales University. Dear Zeus, Jupiter, Hera, Aphrodite, Odin, Allah, Who-the-hell-are-you… thanks.



I got into Subway two seconds before three. Yippee! Oldies came and went inside the resto, and I felt like an attendant in McDonalds or Dunkin Donuts. Gah! I don’t like to wait too long.

Well, I’m glad some beggars, I mean a street singer soothing my temper. He got this old guitar, probably from garage sale, wearing black coat matched with his long hair and patches of hairs on his chin and cheeks. Just imagine the movie Moses. (Kidding!)

I stared at his guitar case left open in the ground with a dozen quarters and a dollar on it. Poor guy, he needs to join national lottery to be a millionaire. He glimpse at me, he got this dark brown eyes; tense and tired-looking. He was singing John Denver’s Perhaps love. He kept on singing but no one dares to throw a coin on his case.

Hey guys wake up, he needs money and he got some voice.

Finally, he ended the song with nothing taken, even a fake cents or play money with the face of Bush. I heard him cleared his throat and sing another song.



“Jen,” Christine snapped, as she tapped my shoulder.

“Oh sorry, I didn’t notice. Sorry. Oh well look at you. Stunning!”

She smiled. Ha. A stunning boar.

“Let’s go,” Annie pulled me. Christine and Samantha followed. Guess what? We went inside the Subway and Sam treat us everything we wanted. I just chose simple, nearly a hundred dollars.

As I sat on a comfortable chair, like having a serious tea party with Mad Hatter, I can still see the singing-beggar kept plucking and strumming his old guitar. Nothing’s changed, no one threw a dollar.

“What’s with you now Jen? Dating or melting?” asked Annie.

“Both,” I answered, “I haven’t found one.”

“How about the guy at the outside? You’re staring at him lately. Lovestrucked?”

Ew.

“Lightning stricken.”

We laugh. I took a sip of cola, and looked at him through the window. I smiled.

“He’s a cutie,” Sam said.

“And I think you can use him,” Christine finished Sam’s line.

“What can I get with him? Nothing. Duh! Poor.” I snapped.

“No one knew, he can offer things you still don’t have dear.”



I rolled my eyes in disgust. Even a candy he can’t offer. Well, maybe he can. Just a maybe. Blech! Blech! Blech!



“Stop and watch me dear,” Annie said and stood, went outside and oh dear, she approached the singer. I looked down, covering my face with my little hand. Ugh. Hate it. Annie was doing her thing. The singing-beggar looked at me, uninterested. I pursed my lips, bit my tongue and grind my teeth. Annie was smiling when she sat back; I did not dare to ask her what the street singer said knowing she’ll tell me everything like a detailed storyteller. I tried to glimpse at the singer, he was looking at us, or me maybe. T.M.T.H.



“He said yes,” Annie said, “now you got a man.”



It left my mouth open.



“I don’t like to date with him okay? I’m not. Period. Period. Period.”

I frowned.

“You can’t get a detour dear. It’s now or never. Make your choice.”

I rolled my eyes again, knowing that’s all I can do. I saw him packing his things. Does it mean? Gulp.



“Now?”

“Of course.”



Sam and Christine smiled. The boar and the gecko.



“I hate you.”

“No, no. You’ll gonna love me. Make that man fell in love with you, and after two weeks do your thing. Break-up-thing. Bust him. This is the thing, if you can’t break him after two weeks you can’t watch Poison and thorns with us. For free, I treat.”



It was a bloody offer. She used my weakness: the hottest band in Penn ever! Annie= a smart German shepherd. I couldn’t refuse such offer. My friends are my financier in every activity I did and planning to do. Ugh. Do I need to date this poor guy? It’s hard to make him feel something to me. I need to travel and ask a love potion from a witch.

“Deal,” I said and they left me alone together with Sam’s credit card. Yes!

“G.L.” Christine said and winked. When they got far, I noticed the ‘singer’ was approaching towards me or the Subway? Me.

Let’s get to work Jennifer Jones; you’re going to be a theater actress so this would be your first summer workshop. He entered without smiling, and sat without a noise.

Silence.

We’re waiting who’s going to speak first. Like we are playing chess or scrabble waiting for someone’s turn to move.

“Hi,” I broke the silence. That will do.

“I…I better go,” he said and stood holding his guitar case.

“Wait, why? What’s wrong?”

Gulp.

“I don’t date.”

Oh really? Are you from uncivilized rural area?

“Wait. Sit down, please.”

He stopped and sat down; tense and anxious. He felt uneasy, and I felt that too. Another silence came and I did not dare to speak. He was looking outside. I could see how he really looks like. Yes, his brown eyes, his dark uncombed hair covering his ears and his cheeks, short hairs on his chin like he left it alone for a couple of weeks. I was right; his coat was old and seemed unwashed. He might be an Asian and a bit of American, half-blooded perhaps. He was different from the men I met before. But just the same, for sure, at the end; they’ll treat us girls like a toy. So I’ll bust him first. We sat without any order, my coffee went cold. He cleared his throat.

“I need to work,” he said brushing his hair backwards, “If I don’t, I will starve for this day. Maybe we can have time tomorrow. Or maybe, never.”

I felt my sweat was forming at my temples.

“No, don’t. I really want to have a time with you. I saw you earlier, and I heard your voice. You got a talent, and I like to talk to talented people like you.”

“Thanks,” he replied and smiled, but still not looking at me.

“Want to talk with me?” I asked, “You look hungry. We can eat first.”



I suggested like I always do with the guys I busted. Same line, same facial expression and tune.

“I don’t have something to buy,” he said, as he tied his hair with a rubber band. Now I could see his face clearly. HE took out his money out of his pocket; less than five dollars more than four dollars, perhaps. (I’m not good in math.)

“I’m sorry, maybe next time I can save my money. Uhm…”

Silence.

“Don’t worry my treat. Be sure next time, you’ll have your turn.” I smiled at him. He smiled back at me. Eyes to eyes, smile to smile.

“Sure, sure. But I won’t promise. May I know your name?”

This is it.

“Jennifer Jones. Call me Jen.”

“Achilles Adams. Kelly.”

J.J, A.A? Ha-ha.

I smiled as I took his hand.

“Nice meeting you," I said with a wide grin, "Let’s go.”
 
2. First Fold: Music of Fools

As we walk together, side by side, like a typical friends, I noticed that he is tall and smelled great though he looked not. He smelled like summer, like a burnt honey and first bloom of rose. (Now I sounded like a freak) He was silent, mild, and I can’t explain the rest. Calm but tense...? All I could tell he's different. I tried to sort my favorite food chains in my mind. Scan...scan...scan... I found one: cheap and delicious.

"Where do you live?" I asked him like I am asking a prep-child.

"Er. I'm homeless."

Homeless relates to nomadic, vagrant...

He smiled though what he said was terrible to imagine. Kelly just followed me where I turn and stop, finding the chain that I wanted. I imagined him wearing the same garment and perhaps undie. Gah! I blushed for a moment.

Homeless, of course he looked like one of what he said. I asked him if it was real when he said he don't date. And he answered it right away.

"Yes. Er. My first time. Today."

Uh-huh? I don't believe him.

"So this is your first time."

You didn't tried to have a lover if that's what you said and if I believe in you saying you don't date.

"Yes," he said as if he answered what's going on my mind.

I nodded in amazement and confusion and with a shock. What's wrong with this guy? And what's wrong with me sticking around with him.

“Do you really want to spend time with me?” he asked again and it seems his voice was saying a normal line not a question,” you can leave me now, find your friend.s I can take care of myself.”

You surely do.

“I’m not really into this thing,” he added.

Oh dear. Oh dear.

This only means that he doesn’t like me; my beauty and my beauty. (Disregard my brain, it does not function properly.) Rolling Stones’ was right: You can’t always get what you want.

Oh dear!

If I leave him, no more Poison and Thorns and my mission will be failed? I will not surrender. No time to go back. No detour.

“No, I really want to spend time with you,” I said, and it sounded like I’m begging, “as I’ve said, you’re a talented guy and I like talented people.”

I felt like a shit after saying those repeated words. And it seemed this mission would be hard for me to accomplish. He is too weird for me. Ugh! The thing he lacked is when he’ll speak Big Bang or Genetics. Nerd alert. Weird alert.

There we entered the food chain and started to order.

He just sat, I ordered.

“What do you want to eat?”

“Anything,” he simply said.



Anything? Well, how about knife or ladle? You want to eat that?



But then, I nodded and ordered what I craved to eat. As I look at him, I felt like I’m bringing a stray dog inside this food chain. I kept thinking what he said: I’m not really into this. Then why he can’t stand and leave me now? Ugh. Still, I’ll stop him. I need the concert. I need to see the hot vocalist, Richard. Hot as hell!

We ate silently, like we are eating in the library. It seemed like someone died. If Annie did not give this offer, I would leave now. But for now, I’ll be with Kelly within two weeks. Fourteen days.

He ate. I stare at him. He looks back. I eat again.

“Where are your parents?”

I was waiting for his answer, but he didn’t. He just stared at me with his tensed eyes. I looked down. Oh well maybe they’re dead. Next question Jen, think of another one. Umm…

“Do you have a brother or maybe a sister?”

Silence.

Maybe you don’t have. Oh well, maybe all of them are dead. Probably he’s a son of nobody. I’m assuming he’s an alien. I stopped asking. He continued to eat, wipe his lips, look at me and took a bite again. Doing it in a cycle way. I want to go home, but my father’s whore would be there. I don’t like to hear them doing their thing. Gross.

Be patient Jen. It is a virtue and virtues are important in dealing people’s lives. And life is unfair. And unfair is me.

“My father is in jail,” he suddenly said, “mom is in Madison, my home. I had neither brother nor sister.”

Ha-ha. Late reply? Traffic.

“Oh, you left your mom?”

I’m expecting late reply, for sure. I’ll just wait. Lalalalalala…

“I left her to pursue my dreams.”

Oh, no traffic.

“What’s your dream then?”

He cleared his throat, clearing the forming traffic.

“Never mind. It won’t happen anyway. Every dreams I have won’t exist.”

“Nothing is impossible,” I quoted breaking the serious scene,” Do you know what my dreams are?”

“Tell me.”

“To be a famous theater actress. Be a part of Les Miserables in Broadway or be a Maria in West Side Story,” I proudly said with assurance it will happen.

“Too lofty. But no one’s stopping you.”

What’s wrong with him? He’s getting weirder and weirder.

But he sounds great to me though. He is cool.

“On my own,” he suddenly said the song of les mis.

I smiled. Yeah, he is cool. Period.

“You’re blushing.”

“Oh,” I gasped and looked down, biting my lips, “I just love that song.”

And he was the first man to appreciate the thing I loved, music.

We finished eating and started to walk everywhere our feet may go. I love burning fats after eating, and love using someone’s credit card. He checked his wristwatch.

Probably six.



“Is it heavy?” I said, referring at the guitar. (I admit it was a sick question!)

He shook his head and said, “You haven’t tried to use guitar?”

I nodded, remembering the guitar lesson we had without really using the guitar. Well, I passed the practical test without performing.



I nodded. He laughed.

I frowned. He stopped.



“I don’t know how to play. It sounds crazy but I don’t like that thing, pressing those strings. Gah! Callus. I don’t even had a rhythm.”

He laughed again. “Do you want to know how to play?”

To practice guitar? This is not what I planned this summer. Not my blueprint. It’s not on my list. No-no. Practicing guitar will take a month in my summer. But it pays time, two weeks would be easy. It will buy his time, and I think he’s in love with me now. Breaking up would be the next and Annie will be happy and she’ll give me a ticket to the concert and boom! Mission accomplished.

Easy.

“But how about your street singing? Surely it would affect you.”

“Then let’s make a deal. I’ll give you a free guitar lesson and my debts for the food I ate will be paid. Is that alright?”

I just smiled and saw my friends are coming. I could see their teeth smiling like they were dipped in sweet chocolate with drugs.



“I got to go,” he whispered.

“Wait. Can we have another time tomorrow?” I said my magical smile.

“Sure.”

“Same time, same place. Do your best to have some money. You’ll treat me tomorrow.”

“That’s not nice of you,” he said and stepped away from me, “but I’ll try.”

“Bye.”

“See you!”

I turned my head towards where he went. Funny guy. I did not feel guilty in spending time with him. And, I did not feel any regret to offer him another day of my summer time with me.

“Look who’s smiling,” Christine said and giggled like a live piranha on a hot pan.

“Oh shut up,” I snapped.

“You’re blushing dear,” Annie said, “but remember the pact.”

Yes, the pact. Ugh.

I hate it. I started to like the guy and now the agreement will destroy everything between us. But how about the concert? I tried to remember Richard’s face but it won’t appear, it was replaced by Achilles. His long hair, those patches of hair on his chin and cheeks, his brown eyes, his serious conversation, those relaxing laugh and his smile that made my heart leaped. Ugh!
 
3. First Fold: Music of Fools

I went home and my father's whore was there, sitting on his lap. Duh! She looked like an old iguana. I didn't care to greet them, it might disturb their movie watching: Mission Impossible II. Before I could stepped the stairs dad spilled some lines.

“Good thing you went home early, Jen,” he said holding a can of Budweiser.

“Bad thing dad, it will destroy your moment with her tonight 'cause I'll be banging the walls and play my Poison and Thorns.”

Ha. I left him speechless.

“Hey,” the whore said, “respect your father young girl.”

“Respect yourself old woman, and please find some decent jod. And oh, you look stupid wearing red dress and boots,” I spat and rolled my eyes, proceed to my room and slumped in my bed.

I missed my mom.

Dear mom, please do come back. ASAP. Dad is bringing whore that looked like horse. File a divorce to your new guy or take me there in Austin. I'll be a good girl. Love, Jennifer.

I closed the door and recall what I did today.



Dear, Diary

I'm loving Achilles Adams.

Don't tell anyone.

X.O.X.O



Secretly yours,

Jen



It was 9 in the evening, and I admit, I can't stand the noise. Giggling and ugh! I need to go out. Fresh air, that's all I needed and nothing else.

I went downstairs and unlocked our main door, passed through the front porch and started my wandering beneath the moon. I saw a drunk man, thinking do alcoholic drinks can vanish the pain of breaking up to someone?

Dad became a heavy cross since mom left us to marry another man richer and more handsome than dad. He started to get drunk and now he brought whores every night. I mean M-W-F, not T-Th. No Saturdays because it's his rest day of working: manager of our stupid house. And, Sunday for it is God's day. Ha-ha. What he did doesn't follow. It is still a sin. He used old horses for fun. I know he can afford such woman but it is still not right.

Monday: Mrs. Wing, a librarian.

Wednesday: Mrs. Lewis, public school teacher.

Friday: Mrs. Michaels, a secretary.



Kelly?

From far away I could see him playing his guitar. Hmm, overtime? Well, he must do it. I wasted his time on me. He's still wearing the same coat. I could hear his voice, like inviting me to listen him, like he brought a news from his song. I took out a money from my pocket, five dollars, that will do.

I stood in front of him, and did not noticed me yet.

Am I invisible? Or just unnoticeable?



I threw the money with a smile. Well, he earned a lot at night. Probably 60 dollars with quarters. He smiled at me and continue to sing. I just stared him, studying his face and the opening of his mouth.

I wonder how it feels like to kiss him.

I smiled.

He sang a song that I'm not familiar with. Maybe 80's or 90's. I just swayed my body following the rhythm.

Then, with a late notice, I started to forget the problems at home, those whores, the longing for my mom, even the happiness of passing De Sales. His voice covered me, I'm soaked in its purity and honesty. (And I didn't realized that I'm getting soft and mild.) Ugh.

Angel, I can compare him to that. Then, the music ends. He chuckled.

“Can't sleep?” he said, brushing back his hair.

“Naw, just finding good vibes on the street. By the way that was great.”

“Thanks, any request?”

A song? Oh!

“Let me think. How about Bryan Adams?”

“Heaven.”

I nodded, then he closed the guitar case. We sat on the nearby bench, seeing people passed us by. Finally, he started to play his guitar pressing the chords that I-do-not-dare-to-know.



Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
 
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