The imagined listener/Self-censorship
I agree with Abulafia. No writer writes for only themselves, though it seems that many will not admit that.
Writing is always an act of communication. It is a proposition: will someone (even the imaginary someone) engage with me in these ideas, in this story, in this mind thread? Even the writer with no intention of publishing thinks of what one would say to a friend, of posterity, of dead parents and lost opportunities to communicate. It is a one-sided dialogue (not a monologue), and there is always someone actively listening, even if only the ideal listener in the writer’s imagination.
Shitty first drafts should be written for oneself, with the ultimate goal of improving them so that they’re ready for someone else. But to say “I write only for myself” is to deny the essential act. Every writer should please him or herself first, but part of that approval is hearing your writing through a potential reader’s or listener’s mind.
Another related idea:
Self-censorship is often a very good thing. The value of self-censorship is that it, at its best and most functional, will force a writer to clarify ideas, give thought, be true. Of course if it stops a person from expressing anything meaningful, it’s not serving its purpose. Anyone going through that should sit down and write out all their thoughts on their frustration, what the “censor” is saying, what it sounds like, whose voice it is, and what you would say to it, how angry you are, what you want to express that it won’t let you. Think of it as self-therapy.
On the other hand, functional self-censorship has compelled many a writer to dance beautifully around ideas with language, to write at the edge of something difficult, like love or death, which is the essence of the poetic voice, and to hone their writing to a more expressive level. The best writing is not always “come right out and say it.” It is often softened, embroidered and even obscured by inhibition, and when the core emotion emerges through that, it can be wonderful.
This post is not intended as a personal criticism of other’s posts, but as an exploration and a theoretical refutation, pushing the subject just a little farther than the superficial. I hope it will be taken as such.