Ambiguous
It was a hot night.
It was hot sticky dream stale night. A steaming, filthy, fly infested, windless night. A night of broken dreams and wings and things. A night of uncaring stars. A night of lost dogs, dreams, pennies and kisses. A night for flight. A night for fight. A night for violence. A night to sit and sweat, stir, stare and stew. A calm restless night. A night to waste away wishing wistless wishes. A night for nice lovely bottles of gleaming beer. A night for ice cubes. A night for horror and hurt. A night for snapped tempers. A night for ice cold showers. A night for cold packs. A night for frantic fucking. A night for a million things, a million dreams, a million stories, but not a night for sleeping.
Amber, wide awake, lay naked on the naked bed. Sleep was far away. A distant shore in the sticky soup of the night. Outside, beyond the window, lay the slumbering city streets. Sometimes the velvet silence in the obsidian night would be broken by the screech of tyres. plaintive cries of a baby or maybe a metallic sireen's scream. Amber turned her head towards the glow of the alarm clock digits. The red L.C.D display like a setting sun in the darkness of the room. The numbers told her it was 2 in the morning.
"Shit... I'm too old to be awake at 2.am." Amber whispered into the hot darkness. "50 years of age, and where did those years go?" She asked the silent night the question. As always, the night never replied to her night time voiced questions. With another sigh, she eased her body from the bed and padded into the kitchen. Half way into the kitchen, came the sound. Loud. Heavy. Thumping. Banging.
A knocking. A frantic knocking at her door. Amber froze with thoughts tumbling though her mind. Thoughts crashing and burning in her soul.
What the hell?
Knocking?
At this time?
A killer?
Somebody needing help?
A rapist?
A child?
A man?
A woman?
What the hell?
What the hell?
Now?
Why?
Me?
As the last of the thoughts tumbled the knocking... stopped.
Hands, shaking slightly, she smoothed back her long black hair. Amber walked slowly towards the bed to pull on her clothing. Heart pounding. Skin tingling. Come on, shit dammit, she told herself silently. Pull yourself together woman! Who are you, to be afraid of the night? Amber pulled on her blue jeans and white shirt, she kept an eye on the untelling wooden door. The door gave no awnsers. Doors never do. They can only lead or pose questions. They never ever tell.
Amber gulped down the hot air and started walking towards the door with a soft steady pace. Slowly, she moved though the heat thick room towards the door. The door that still lay silent. Grave silent. Silent as a dead bird. Silent as silance. Dust silent. Disturbing silent.
Finally, reaching the door, she pressed one ear to the wood. Amber listened. She could hear her breathing too loud in her own ears. It was a rushing wooshing sound. From beyond the door there was only silence. She listened and listened. As she listened, she turned, from time to time, to watch those ghost red minutes ghost past. Silence, only silence.
BANG.
Amber jumped back with a cry of panic. Animal crouched on the floor with wide wild eyes. Now her breathing like a waterfall. Her heart punching her ribs, faster and faster.
"shit!"
"****!"
"who the hell?" She shouted. "WHO THE HELL???"
Then, came the voice from beyond the door.
It was a hot night.
It was hot sticky dream stale night. A steaming, filthy, fly infested, windless night. A night of broken dreams and wings and things. A night of uncaring stars. A night of lost dogs, dreams, pennies and kisses. A night for flight. A night for fight. A night for violence. A night to sit and sweat, stir, stare and stew. A calm restless night. A night to waste away wishing wistless wishes. A night for nice lovely bottles of gleaming beer. A night for ice cubes. A night for horror and hurt. A night for snapped tempers. A night for ice cold showers. A night for cold packs. A night for frantic fucking. A night for a million things, a million dreams, a million stories, but not a night for sleeping.
Amber, wide awake, lay naked on the naked bed. Sleep was far away. A distant shore in the sticky soup of the night. Outside, beyond the window, lay the slumbering city streets. Sometimes the velvet silence in the obsidian night would be broken by the screech of tyres. plaintive cries of a baby or maybe a metallic sireen's scream. Amber turned her head towards the glow of the alarm clock digits. The red L.C.D display like a setting sun in the darkness of the room. The numbers told her it was 2 in the morning.
"Shit... I'm too old to be awake at 2.am." Amber whispered into the hot darkness. "50 years of age, and where did those years go?" She asked the silent night the question. As always, the night never replied to her night time voiced questions. With another sigh, she eased her body from the bed and padded into the kitchen. Half way into the kitchen, came the sound. Loud. Heavy. Thumping. Banging.
A knocking. A frantic knocking at her door. Amber froze with thoughts tumbling though her mind. Thoughts crashing and burning in her soul.
What the hell?
Knocking?
At this time?
A killer?
Somebody needing help?
A rapist?
A child?
A man?
A woman?
What the hell?
What the hell?
Now?
Why?
Me?
As the last of the thoughts tumbled the knocking... stopped.
Hands, shaking slightly, she smoothed back her long black hair. Amber walked slowly towards the bed to pull on her clothing. Heart pounding. Skin tingling. Come on, shit dammit, she told herself silently. Pull yourself together woman! Who are you, to be afraid of the night? Amber pulled on her blue jeans and white shirt, she kept an eye on the untelling wooden door. The door gave no awnsers. Doors never do. They can only lead or pose questions. They never ever tell.
Amber gulped down the hot air and started walking towards the door with a soft steady pace. Slowly, she moved though the heat thick room towards the door. The door that still lay silent. Grave silent. Silent as a dead bird. Silent as silance. Dust silent. Disturbing silent.
Finally, reaching the door, she pressed one ear to the wood. Amber listened. She could hear her breathing too loud in her own ears. It was a rushing wooshing sound. From beyond the door there was only silence. She listened and listened. As she listened, she turned, from time to time, to watch those ghost red minutes ghost past. Silence, only silence.
BANG.
Amber jumped back with a cry of panic. Animal crouched on the floor with wide wild eyes. Now her breathing like a waterfall. Her heart punching her ribs, faster and faster.
"shit!"
"****!"
"who the hell?" She shouted. "WHO THE HELL???"
Then, came the voice from beyond the door.