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RitalinKid

RitalinKid

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Where are they? They were right here! I know I saw 'em! Damnit! Why does this shit always happen? To me! I am so fucking stupid!

Maybe I just need to rest. Or maybe I just need to get away from everybody. Why are they pushing me? Why can't they just realize that they lead their life, and I lead mine? I'll never be able to make them happy, and I'll never get that shit done. Why try? Why should I keep on? Things would just be better if I were dead. No pain. No people to satisfy. No worries. Just stillness.

Oh, there they are! Now, I've gotta be at that meeting at ten. Maybe I should put my scratch into a spreadsheet. Mmm. It's a nice thought, but it probably won't happen. First I've gotta make sure everybody gets started out with something to do.

Why am I putting that needle in my ass? I don't know what my fucking problem is.
 
Yeah, it does but actually, I'm just pissed about something I bought that didn't pan out. However, I do struggle with that voice in my head, and I wanted to show it or express it to other people. I let my girlfriend hear it the other weekend by just saying things as they come into my head, and she became completely despondent. At first, she thought I was just "trying to be negative," but she later realized that I live with this every hour of every day, and she can't imagine how I do it.

Anyway, this is what I know, and you have to start writing what you do know before you try writing for other people's perspectives that you don't know.
 
Very raw and from the gut.

Sounds like a rant, but there's lots you could elaborate on - unless you just want to use it as a means to purge your anger/frustration. Which is okay, too. :)
 
It's not really supposed to be a rant. It's supposed to be a representation of thoughts that just interject themselves. Even though it's supposed to be based on my own problems, I want to show how crazy the mind can be. I can get so pissed at myself over nothing and that feeling will carry over into everything else in my life: family, work, etc. The moment gratification comes along, the same things that were the source of frustration then become the motivation. I don't know if I conveyed that well enough. ?
 
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