Some Personal Reflections on Proust
THE VASE
“An hour is not merely an hour,” wrote the French novelist Marcel Proust, “it is a vase full of scents and sounds and projects and climates.”1 This sentence conveys much of the tone and the texture, the spirit and the form, the medium and the message that is the backdrop for much of what I write. In my case, though, it is not so much scents and sounds that fill the vase of my writing, but a wealth and welter of ideas, concepts, visions and views. They do not possess any scent and they are silent, but they speak to and of my inner life and fill it to overflowing. That vase which Proust refers to and the one that is my own life is often full to overflowing, but the eye can not see nor the heart understand all that I would put in it and it is difficult to put that vase on display for others to enjoy for it is not made of glass and its contents are not some attractive arrangement of flowers for others to enjoy.
It took Proust many years to work out the subject of his famous novel Remembrance of Things Past. Eventually he realized it was “his own struggle to write.” In his late thirties he also realized by sensible and insensible degrees that he was “ready to settle down to a fairly long piece of work” and this he did until his death at the age of fifty in 1922. For the last dozen years of his life, then, from 1909 to 1922, a 3000 page novel rolled off the literary, the autobiographical framework he had drafted in 1908-1909.
Whether others experience the meaning and the pleasures of my silent world, my unnumbered projects, the micro-climates in which I write, my vase as it were, is something over which I feel, I think, I have little control, if any control at all. I, like Proust, have settled down to a fairly long piece of writing. It has rolled off my literary, my autobiographical, press after drafting a framework by sensible and insensible degrees at the turn of the millennium, 1999 to 2003, at this climacteric of history. It is an account of the immensity and wonder of my life and times, my religion and my society and what well may turn out to be the greatest and the most awful scene in the history of humankind. -Ron Price with thanks to 1Marcel Proust in “Why Proust? And why now?” Dinitia Smith, New York Times, 13 April 2000.
My work, too, Marcel, found
its home in sudden gustos of
memory when there was some
inhaling of the moment, at times
unprompted, at times prompted,
awakening of my past, the past,
triggered by things illogical and
unforeseen, just some shaping of
a day, a year, a time or half a time,
more than representation---as if
some living thing, some picture in
my brain was found on the wall of
my life not just mnemonic sign, but
visual cortex stung into words on a
page, read somewhere, recreated for
my settled-down life, its long period
of work to tell some of the story---
however idiosyncratic, however much
personally framed, however egocentric,
indeed, narcissistic, ill-constructed and
narcissistic, stitched together a past that
is still alive within me and us and which
I have carried within me all these years.
Sometimes the memories are graphic, some
half forgotten things, experiences over several
epochs of time during which a heterodox,
a seemingly negligible offshoot of that
Shaykhi school of the Ithna-Ashariyyih sect
of Shiite Islam continued its transformation
into a world religion, extending its light to
the far corners of the earth while both my life
and this Faith resolved themselves into a series
of internal and external crises of varying severity,
devastating in their immediate effects but each
releasing a divine power, a celestial grace
which I would never understand but which
crystallised and shaped my creative energies,
my life, especially during these latter years
into restored sensory impressions like some
fruits and blossoms of a consecrated joy far
from those numbing and dulling habits and
forces which beleaguer us all amidst those
awkward and tangled realities of our lives.
Ron Price
3 December 2008:whistling: