THE STAND-I need clarification here

[jennybug87]

***SPOILERS****

Harold and frannie.

The baby is from Jesse right? We read through six hundred, seventy pages knowing she's pregnant than on page 672 paragraph 3

"-again or maybe calling him Whack-off Lauder, as Amy said they used to do.sometimes I think it would have been better for him(and maybe me too) if we hadn't hooked up back in Ogunquit. I'm part of his old life,-".

On page 703 she confesses her pregnancy to stu, and we go on about

"-he would leave her immediately(as Jesse undoubtedly would have done if he discovered she was pregnant with another man's child)-"

I'm come to the extrapolation that frannie's child is not from her boyfriend (Jesse), but meat loaf Harold.
BUT WAIT!! On page 843 she talks about the baby moving

"-she almost woke stu up and than didn't.if only he had put the baby inside her, instead of jess."

We'll which Is it?

 

[jennybug87]

"He thought of a game they had played when they were children, a game the others had teased him about because he never quite dared to go through with it. There was a gravel pit out on one of the back roads, and you could jump off the edge and fall a great heartstopping distance before hitting the sand, rolling over and over, and finally climbing up to do it all over again.
All except Harold. Harold would stand on the lip of the drop and chant, one....two....THREE! Just like the others, but the talisman never worked. His legs remained locked. he could not bring himself to jump. And the others sometimes chased him home shouting at him, calling him Harold the pansy.
He thought: if I could have brought myself to jump once....just once...I might not be here. Well, last time pays for all.

He thought: one....two....THREE!
He pulled the trigger.
The gun went off.
Harold jumped."

This swept me away. Past childhood nostalgic feeling of being a child and participating in "dare deviled" activities such as jumping off swings and monkey bars. Talking your self into running and jumping off of sand dunes that looked like cliffs, but you didn't know how far the drop may be. (You always knew they were 2-4 feet, but maybe that one, just that one may be 10)..
And when Harold took his life, that was a moving, yet..... __________idk... I saw a child that never had a chance and this was his one for all for all the maybes, and possibilities that could have been.

I know he was a shit ball toward the end, but that big lug had a heart.