pontalba said:
Martin was misunderstood by ALL. Its as though he was turned into himself, and showed only the bland and uncommunicative shell. No one around attempted to penetrate that shell, to see what was really there. What I don't understand is Why.
Maybe its a lesson in the manner we see only what we want to see (meaning Martin's surrounding family, friends etc.).
Why? Was it too much trouble to peer into Martin's motivations and true inner self? Were they all just consumed with the trauma of their individual flights from Russia and the day to day dealing with all of That? Sophia truely loved her son, but was so far from understanding him as the earth is from the sun.
Pontalba,
Martin certainly is a different sort of guy. But actually I'm not sure I can see a single consistent personality "type" in his total character.
In his dream world of reveries, where he could almost have lived his entire life, and in his ability to entertain himself and perhaps live a solitary quiet life, not sharing many ideas with people, he sounds to me like a shy only child. Who was brought up -- Martin, that is -- by a doting mother who gave him unconditional love and approval, but who grew up without so many possibilites for social growth. In
Speak Memory VN speaks very lovingly of his mother and one sees that it is a direct reflection of her love for him. IMO So Martin is not far off.
On the other hand, he is not
so extremely withdrawn from the real world as to be simply a passive observer, because he is not timid about trying out its personal challenges for himself, and meeting them as well as he can, and then persevering until he conquers them, even if his knees might be trembling at the same time.
And as we have seen he does also function in social settings even if, there, the overall impression he gives might be that he is a "quiet" person.
I think he just kept his inner world to himself rather easily, and associated with people tolerably well enough that communication remained at the casual social level and there never arose any occasions to wonder more deeply. He never appeared neurotic, deranged or crazy (except up the lamp post
). And he engaged in active sports, but was not boisterous. Later on, though, we do begin to see people's reactions to him as he begins to act with his own wilfullness and to indicate his plans to them, and not receiving entirely favorable reactions. But by then he is on his own track and actively pursuing his own goal irrespective of what people might think.
So he is a quiet, but not so quiet, withdrawn, but not so withdrawn, sociable, but not too sociable, timid, but not too timid, active, but not too boisterous, only but not really only, child who has grown up, but not entirely grown up. I don't know if there are many people like that. Or maybe in different proportions all of us are like that somehow, and he just has a very special mix. Even among only children.
"Spoiled only child" is what might first come to mind, but it seems to me not to fit in just too many different ways.
Peder
Amateur Psychologist
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